Brick

i’ve had enough drama for the year. i cannot wait for this month to be over. i just need to get to july and get my job and get my money and try to get life settled down…again. had fun with my friends tonight =) it was a nice pseudo distraction. tomorrow i gotta finish the cleaning and organizing of my room. then the well. and i write my cares away. blegh lets get this over with

a very fitting song for my last few nights of life. sort of. cuz i’m not in a relationship. but people who start drama drag you down. anywho the song is Brick by Ben Folds. this is my all-time favorite song by him.

another unique break up song. it epitomizes the break up of two mature adults who know that they shouldn’t be together because they’re holding each other back for the sake of the relationship. but they’re too afraid of being alone, but being alone with another lonely person is just as miserable. this is the gist of the song

in another point of view, it reminds me of the people that we all have to eventually cut out of our lives no matter how much we want to be good people and be nice. the people who need attention so much that they’ll lie. the people who want to be the center of a scandal. they want sympathy, they want someone else to feel worse than themselves. they drag people down, and slowly but surely, they start to lose friends because everybody has to come up for air at some point. i really wish these people could get a grip and realize that there’s enough drama in peoples’ lives without starting meaningless crap. it makes everything and everyone ten times harder to deal with. JUST STOP

six a m
day after Christmas
i throw some clothes on in the dark
the smell of cold
car seat is freezing
the world is sleeping and i am numb

up the stairs
to her apartment
she is balled up on the couch
her mom and dad
went down to Charlotte
they’re not home to find us out
and we drive
now that i have found someone
i’m feeling more alone
than i ever have before

she’s a brick and i’m drowning slowly
off the coast and i’m headed nowhere
she’s a brick and i’m drowning slowly

they call her name
at 7:30
i pace around the parking lot
then i walk down
to buy her flowers
and sell some presents i got
can’t you see?
it’s not me you’re dying for
now she’s feeling more alone
than she ever has before

she’s a brick and i’m drowning slowly
off the coast and i’m headed nowhere
she’s a brick and i’m drowning slowly

as weeks went by
it showed that she is not fine
they told me
son it’s time to tell the truth
and she broke down
and i broke down
cause i was tired
of lying

driving back
to her apartment
for a moment we’re alone
she’s alone
and i’m alone
now i know it

she’s a brick and i’m drowning slowly
off the coast and i’m headed nowhere
she’s a brick and i’m drowning slowly